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And you pray everyday for the pain to go away but it never did ♥


Friday, May 31, 2013

Haven't blogged in sucha long time.

But right now, I've no one. No one to go to when I'm sad. I'm all alone. 

'Iloveyou'
Do you? Or is it a lie just like what everyone say? 

Would you love me even if the whole world dislike me? Would you be my side if everyone kick me away? Would you? 

Or would you leave like everyone else. Stand by the side & watch everyone laugh at me. 

What would you do?

Running into the room, you see her pretty little body crumpled up, cuts all over, bleeding badly. She no longer has a pulse. She's gone.

My wish has been the same since last year. I just want to be happy, I just want to be loved. 

Running my fingers past my scars, I can see every scar. I can remember what happen. 

Please tell me, why do you love me? 

Too broken to be loved. 

One, two, three, blood dripping one by one.

'Baby, I thought you made a promise to not cut.'

I'm trying my best to not break that promise. But it's fucking killing me.

Never fucking good enough 

Tried so hard, studied so hard. But apparently, there's no difference. I'm fucking dumb. Nothing but dumb. What can I do right? nothing. fml. Fucking dumb worthless piece of shit. Good for nothing.

She said goodbye. She meant it. She's gone & lost forever now.

They say they wouldn't leave
But they still did


Sunday, May 5, 2013

So apparently, it's 5am & I'm still awake here?

Yup, completely insane already. So I've been thinking bout things.. 

I wouldn't blame you for walking away

No I wouldn't. 

I realise what a damn horrible girlfriend I am. I just get so annoyed at you so easily & you're always giving in to me like I'm some queen. But I'm not.. I'm always pushing you away but you've never given up on me. 

What will it take to show you that you're too damn good for me? No, how long more before you realise you could do much better?

I keep telling myself that I want to be good enough for you. For you to be proud of me & iloveyou so much.

I can't blog much cause my heart's hurting but still. 

I'm afraid, terrified for the day you realise I'm not good enough for you & I can never ever be good enough for you. 

You deserve so much more, baby. I wish you can see that

They say they wouldn't leave
But they still did


Cheryl Baby'Piglet ♥

Don't underestimate the amount of pain someone must be in to drag a blade across their skin
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal
Love leaves a memory no one can steal

13March2013