Haven't blog in like a million years.

Soooo. I'm blogging now. Not that anyone ever looks at my blog but still..

I made a promise, a promise I'm not even sure I can keep.

To not cut as long as we're together? I don't know.. How long would we be together. You tell me forever. But, how many other guys told me that & just end up breaking my heart?

'Do you believe in karma?'

'Yes.'

'I believe you're my karma for the number of girls I played.'

'Then why are you still with me?'

'You're the only person I'd let break my heart.'

I'm so sorry. I hope you're happy with your girlfriend now. You're a great boyfriend. It's just that, we aren't meant to be.

I broke so many people's hearts. What if you're my karma? If you're my karma, I'd gladly let you break my heart. Just promise me to be happy, always.

'I promise, I'd take care of your heart. I promise, to not even let a scratch be on it.'

What happened to that? You broke my entire heart & just fucking walk away.

Do you wish to rewind the past? Do you wish to change the past?

Sometimes, I do. But then, the past is what made me. Right?

I know I don't have the best past, I know I've made so many mistakes. But, but I promise, I've changed. I became better. 

Are you happy now that she's filled with scars? Are you?

So, Daniella, depression can be passed through genes? Really? My cousin have depression and committed suicide at the age of 13. Cause of? Boyfriend.

I've never knew. I never knew I had a cousin who's so similar to me. I wonder if she's alive, maybe she could talk me out of this hell I've fallen into.

I've been afraid to let people into my life, been afraid to love, been afraid to start caring.

Andy changed it all. He saved me. Too bad he never loved me that way.

Wayne Tan? Ha. He used me for sex.. I was so fucking close to losing my virginity.

What the fuck happened to love?

Never believe in 'em no more till I met you, baby. Promised myself never to be the one to break your heart. Promised myself never to hurt you. And I'm intending to keep that promises.

You believe in forever, you believe in love, you believe in me. And for that, I'll promise you, I'm gna make it all happen. I'm gna make forever last for us. I'm gna make love never disappear. I'm not ever gna let you experience the hurt I experienced. I'm gna love you, till the end of time. Whether or not, you love me back.

I'm standing in the dark, she's dancing on the table. Looking through the glass, she's someone else's angel.

I want to be normal. I want to be happy.