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And you pray everyday for the pain to go away but it never did ♥


Monday, January 14, 2013

Can't deny it. I'm jealous

Yeah, I'm damn jealous. (: Like seriously. Hahaha.

Cause you left even after assuring me you won't.

Yknow what, you just crushed my hopes. I thought that just maybe, there are people who won't leave in my life. And you just made me see that, that is impossible.

Are you happy now? I hope you're.

Whoever she is, I hope you two last.

 I'm really shutting off my feelings. It's too painful to feel. Yeah.

It's too painful to give a fuck.

And honestly, I'm numb. I don't want to care. Nothing seems to matter.

From the very start, I was this toy. (:

Well, yknow what. I'm gna make you regret that decision so damn badly. Enjoy hon.

One day, you'll look at me & regret it.

They say they wouldn't leave
But they still did


Saturday, January 12, 2013

I wish I never met you.

I'm always falling for the people who never care & pushing away people who actually cares.

It hurts. But then, I don't know what else to do.

Honestly, I wasn't even hurt. Cause I expected it. I expected you to leave me. I expected you to choose someone else. I really expected it.

I don't know how or why, but I always seem to know when someone's gna leave. And I'll leave the person alone. Maybe, I'm just waiting. Just waiting to see if they'd really leave.

I remember those times, I believed so strongly they wouldn't & when the vibe come & they really left, how broken I was... I remember.

I remember crying till daylight. I remember not being able to look at the person. I remember cutting everyday. I remember being so stressed out I wanted to scream.

The problem was I didn't expect you to left. I didn't believe you would. I thought you'd be the one to stay.

I remember clearly, who are the ones who I believed so strongly who wouldn't leave. I really remember.

I'm determined. I'm determined not to get into another relationship anymore. Till I'm like older. Like maybe, idk, 18? Hahaha. Maybe..

I know my heart would do the damn opposite when someone who I like ask me to be their girlfriend. I hate how people ask for relationships nowadays.

'Want stead?'

Um, no, if you ask that way.

Why can't they be all sweet & everything like in movies ): Whyyyyy.

Don't we all wish for fairytales to happen.

They say they wouldn't leave
But they still did


Tuesday, January 8, 2013

I feel numb..

I don't believe in happily ever after anymore. It no longer exists, in my world. It never will (:

It hurts when the people you thought who'd never leave, ends up leaving. Doesn't it? Hahaha. How many times has it happened? Just how many times?

Happily ever afters just don't exist. It just don't. Really.. All those storybooks? Where the girl always find their prince charming? Well, in my world, that's never gna happen. Never.

I'm always pushing away those people who actually cares & love me while I chase after people who will never make an effort for me. It's always like that. 

Why? Why don't I just cherish those people who actually cares? Well, cause I'm dumb. (: 

Honestly, I feel so numb. It feels like I no longer have feelings anymore. It feels like nothing matters. It just feels so damn emotionless.

Honestly, this life? I wish it ended long long time ago. I wish..

I believed in you.

You just prove it again.. I'm worthless aren't I? Just so worthless. (: Everyone can leave me without giving a damn single fuck. Ohyeah. (: 

No one would ever cares bout me. All I can is just some toy.

Is it cause I'm fat? Is it cause I'm ugly? Is it cause I'm filled with scars?..

Numbness that only cutting can cure..

Don't you realize? You destroyed her.

You were my only hope. When you left, you brought my last hope with you. Along with you. (: Cool.

Do you feel good now? Now then I'm broken? Now that I'm nothing. Completely nothing. Emotionless. It was only after you, that I resorted to cutting again. It was cause of you. 

I trusted you, I believed in you. But all you did was crush my every hope. You brought my hopes up then crush it down. Nice.

Why did you have to make her happy only to destroy her in the end?

They say they wouldn't leave
But they still did


Cheryl Baby'Piglet ♥

Don't underestimate the amount of pain someone must be in to drag a blade across their skin
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal
Love leaves a memory no one can steal

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