I wonder if he reads my blog, would he ever look at me the same way?
Nah... Maybe that's why you left, left the person you said you would always be there for, left the person you claim you love, left the person when she needed you the most.
No, you didn't even give me a goodbye text. You just left. I was dumb enough to try to talk to you again. Only to get a goodbye text.
Have you ever thought how much it killed me to lost you? To lost someone who knows me so well? Have you ever thought that it killed me to see you at school every single time? Have you ever thought that I've to avoid you cause I don't want to have eye contact?
Yknow, sometimes I wonder if you ever miss the past. I wonder if you ever look back & think of me & the memories we had. I wonder so damn many things.
To think that i can still breakdown thinking of you. I miss you. I still do.
I miss our friendship so much.
But I bet you don't, I bet you don't think of me, I bet you forgotten me.
I wonder which part of me you fell for.
I mean, just look at me.
I'm not some pretty girl, I've scars, ugly scars all over my leg. My personality? It's the worse part of me.
Tell me, love, what did you fell for? No, do you even know what you fell for? What kind of person I truly am?
Just a monster who opens her skin.
I don't understand sometimes. How could you fall for someone like me?
I'm scare, no terrified, that one day, you'll think I'm not good enough & just leave. I don't want to think of the pain. Of all the cuts I would make.
Now I can't ever let you read this. If you read this, you're just gna pity me & just choose not to break up with me.
To be honest, I don't deserve you. I'm not worthy enough for you to love me. I'm not good enough. Never fucking was.
I'm so sorry.. I knew, I just, I can't break up with you. I know I'm selfish.. I'm so sorry.
Wouldn't it be better for you if you never knew me?