I feel numb..
I don't believe in happily ever after anymore. It no longer exists, in my world. It never will (:
It hurts when the people you thought who'd never leave, ends up leaving. Doesn't it? Hahaha. How many times has it happened? Just how many times?
Happily ever afters just don't exist. It just don't. Really.. All those storybooks? Where the girl always find their prince charming? Well, in my world, that's never gna happen. Never.
I'm always pushing away those people who actually cares & love me while I chase after people who will never make an effort for me. It's always like that.
Why? Why don't I just cherish those people who actually cares? Well, cause I'm dumb. (:
Honestly, I feel so numb. It feels like I no longer have feelings anymore. It feels like nothing matters. It just feels so damn emotionless.
Honestly, this life? I wish it ended long long time ago. I wish..
I believed in you.
You just prove it again.. I'm worthless aren't I? Just so worthless. (: Everyone can leave me without giving a damn single fuck. Ohyeah. (:
No one would ever cares bout me. All I can is just some toy.
Is it cause I'm fat? Is it cause I'm ugly? Is it cause I'm filled with scars?..
Numbness that only cutting can cure..
Don't you realize? You destroyed her.
You were my only hope. When you left, you brought my last hope with you. Along with you. (: Cool.
Do you feel good now? Now then I'm broken? Now that I'm nothing. Completely nothing. Emotionless. It was only after you, that I resorted to cutting again. It was cause of you.
I trusted you, I believed in you. But all you did was crush my every hope. You brought my hopes up then crush it down. Nice.
Why did you have to make her happy only to destroy her in the end?