I really don't wna care bout anything or anyone alr.

No one cares. I don't know what I doing la siah. How do you guys manage to hate on me so easily? Was I so worthless. Up till now, I can't hate on you all. Never.

Yea. I admit I did wrong. But haven't you all? Forget it.. I really shouldn't even be friends with anyone.

I wna migrate to Australia. Really. It hurts so badly here.

Can't wait for the day mummy tell me I've to go to Australia alr (: It'd be so cool. Leaving all the problems behind.

I really don't know what to blog. I'm just crying like some madwoman here. (:

Forget it.. I really can't do anything. I wish I've to migrate soon. I really hope so. (:

Nights.

No one understands.

Everyone has someone to talk to, someone they go to for comfort. Me? I've myself.

How many times have I told myself to cheer up? How many times have I comforted myself? Honestly, I think it's countless.

Been breaking down so much lately.

The voices keep telling me I'm worthless. And when I try to deny it. Ha.

'If you aren't worthless, why are you comforting yourself instead of someone else? If you aren't worthless, why did so many people left you. If you aren't worthless, why isn't there a person who loves you?'

I've nothing to say anymore.. I just gotta accept it.

I don't know.. I think I'm crazy. Who hears voices like I do? No one. I mean.. I really do hear 'em. Sigh. Forget it. No one understands.

Why do I even bother? Nothing matters.

Been ignoring my feelings. I thought they were fading. But nah, they were there all the time. I just ignored it.

It hurts, okay. It hurts everytime you don't reply. It hurts everytime you become cold after you're sweet. It hurts that I can no longer tell you anything. It hurts that you don't even give a damn bout me. It hurts that you've proven I'm not worthy of anyone's love or care. It hurts that I like someone who don't feel the same way.

Yea. I like you. No, I don't love you. Cause love don't exist in my world. Never did.

I don't think anyone can ever love me. I think they only like me. Like me for a while then just forget bout me. Yea. Love don't exist. In my world. I think it exists in everyone's world but mine. How long has it been since someone told me they love me & actually mean it? How long has it been since someone hugged me.. How long? I really don't remember anymore. How long has it been since someone wiped my tears away? How long has it been since someone send me a long sweet text out of nowhere?

You wna know why I'm doing so much for you? Cause I want the person that ever likes me to do the same back. So I've to do the same to the person I like.

I can't picture anyone loving me. I can't picture anyone looking at me & instantly smile. Not cause I look funny but cause I'm the reason they smile. I can't picture someone ever doing something sweet for me. I can't picture someone never walking away from me..

I really can't... It just.. Don't seem real anymore. Doesn't seem like that's even possible

No. Everyone deserves to be loved. But me.