It's really sad how good friends changed into enemies. How good memories changed into bad memories. How people change.

I don't understand how some people can changed so so much within mere weeks. I mean, how can you forget the people you used to be so close to? How can you hate the person you used to trust so much? How? 

I can never ever hate any of you no matter what. Cause I can never let the hatred blinds me. It's just too impossible. I mean, all the happy memories we once shared? I can't let 'em go just like that. It's not that easy. It never was.

You can hate me all you want but I'll always be here if you need me.

Friendship with Shanya is like crazy alr. I hate it. I hate everything being like this. I'm sick & tired of people leaving me. It's just so painful. The process of losing people.

I'm the type of person that can never let go of memories. I can't just let the hatred blinds me. I don't know.. I mean, being friends means trusting the person no matter what. Haha. I trusts all of you will change (: Cause I know the real you. None of you are that mean. 

Pain changed all of us.

Getting closer to Trevor. Haha. I miss last year. I miss the old me. I miss being hyper and happy and not caring bout anything. But well, I don't know. Things changed. I wonder if I'm never in this school, would I ever self harmed. I doubt so. But then, who knows. (:

Sometimes we walk down memory lane and get hurt again

I miss p6 life. I remember being in a clique. But it wasn't like this. I remember during recess, I like to walk around stealing everyone's food. And no one minded.. Haha.

I miss laughing and spraying water at one another in the middle of class. I miss people standing up for me when I get scolded. I miss people getting punished with me. I miss everything.

I wish I never grew up.

'Was it easy?'
'What?'
'Leaving me like I was totally worthless'

Never forget me.

Hi Daniella, you reading this? I'm sorry for not blogging for sucha long time but I'm just so lazy. I think we've drifted and it hurts that I can't do anything cause you don't have a phone & you apparently can't look for me during recess. I know you feel left out now with 'em. Is it getting better? I hope so, honey. But remember, if you ever need someone, I'd always always be here for you no matter what. You might look at this & say to yourself that I'll leave you. But I never will, love. I'll always be standing beside you no matter what. Cause you matter. Yknow I haven't self harm in a long time? Proud of me? (: I'm no longer dependent on blades. Dear, you've to be strong. I know you're going through a lot but trust me, it'll be over. And my mum wants to migrate to Australia. Actually, she said that since p6 but I'm not sure if it's working. But still, if you're going Australia, I can always visit you cause my mum likes to go there (: Migrate to Perth~! I'm always visiting there. Well, I heard the studies there are really slack and it's fun there. My mum's friend who migrated there is happy. Her daughter used to be bullied in S'pore. But she's really really happy in Australia now. Well I guess things change. But I hope you'll always remember that I'll always be here for you. & I'm not just saying it, I'm proving it. Love you, honey. (: