I wish you'd understand how much you actually mean to me.

Sometimes I think people leave b'cuz we don't tell 'em how much they mean to us, we don't tell 'em how important they're.

I think it's my fault that I lost so many people. I tend to get irritated easily & I like to ignore people. So they must have thought I don't care bout 'em.

I don't know.. I know I drifted from a lot of people but I really don't even bother.

I mean, if you want to leave, I'll let you. What can I do? What rights do I've to make you stay in my life? I mean, it's your choice. And I can't do anything much.

So many people leave. I wonder if they ever look back & think bout me & the memories I shared with 'em.

Cause I do look back. I do still care.

ZhiKai called me ytd. & I realise I might still have feelings for Andy, I won't ever be tgt with him again cause all feelings have faded.

Okay, not all. But 99%. Haha. Sometimes, I really wna leave S'pore. I mean, my parents wna migrate to Australia. Honestly? I wouldn't mind anymore.. There's really nothing much for me to stay here for.

I'd just be a loner there & ignore everyone.. That would be me, I guess. 

I can't imagine how life would be there. But maybe, just maybe, it'd be a lot better.

I've been forcing myself to not have feelings for anyone.

Well, I think I succeeded. I mean, I really wouldn't care anymore. I told myself again & again to not ever put someone as important. And I think I succeeded. Cause I don't like it, I don't like giving someone the power to hurt me. Not anymore. I'm not gna give that power to anyone.

How many people are actually pretending to be happy?