I don't understand the point of making friendships when nothing last.

What's the point? What's the point of making efforts? What's the point of even caring? When nothing matters, when you don't matter to that person.

It's hurting me so badly. I'm gna force myself to block out all these feelings, all these thoughts..

I really really wna cut. But I haven't done it in so long.. But I'm dying to. I want to, so badly. I want the be distracted from all these emotional pain. I'm so hurt. I'm so depressed. Just kill me.

Honestly, if I die tonight in my sleep, I wouldn't mind. Because there's nothing for me to live for. Nothing.

And it's hurting more than ever.

 When you need someone & no one is there, no one. You look for someone but there's still no one.. No one... It's hurting badly...

Please just let me die in my sleep tonight. I wouldn't mind. No more suffering, no more pain. it's just hurting so damn much now...

It's hurting really so so badly... I don't know how to describe it. I mean, my eyes are just stinging now. My eyes hurt. I can't do this anymore. No more. I'm sorry people. But please, it's hurting too too badly.

And I'm gna release all this pain by the only way I know.

I was never good enough for anyone. I never meant anything to people. I'm always drifting from people. It hurts so badly. Honestly, I just wna forget bout everything & die now. Forget it all. (:

Why aren't I good enough? Why is everyone else good enough? Why?

Forget it all okay. I'm dying. Seriously. Just let me die in my sleep alr. I'm so miserable here.

I finally let my feelings come to me. Everything is just wrong. Everyone's wrong. They said, it'll be better. But it only got worse.

One day, I'll be gone & none of you will even notice.

Nothing matters, I don't, no one does. Goodbye.