How many times have the past haunted you? Followed you?

Everyone tried to forget the bad stuff, the bad memories. But they're always the ones who haunt you, who follows you.

We can't hide from all the bad memories, the torturing past. No, we can't. Because it's gna be there forever.  It's gna haunt us forever.

We might forget bout it a while. But it'll always come back when we least expect it to. We might be happy, but those memories, that past will always be there. We'll never ever be able to forget it, be able to get past it.

Everyone keeps saying once you get past the past, everything will be okay. But no. It's not gna be. Everything might be okay. But you, you're not gna be okay. You're gna spend every night relieving yourself of the past. You're gna think bout 'em at the most random moments.

You think you know your worse enemy? No. Do you know who it is? It's you. It's yourself. YOU are the one bringing yourself down. YOU are the one making yourself insecure. YOU are the one making yourself cry, sad. YOU are gna be the one who destroy yourself. YOU are gna be the one torturing yourself.

Deny it all you want. But think, people might call you names but who's the one making 'emselves care? Who's the one walking down memory lane & making 'emselves cry? It's YOU.

Oh hon, you think you hate me? Wait till you realize how much I hate myself.

I hate myself for everything I did. I hate myself for how I look. I hate myself for being so useless, so worthless.

Don't go telling me I'm not worthless. DON'T. Because I am. If I'm not, then people would stay right? People would care right? But no one does.

People keep asking me to cheer up & all, but do you think it's so easy? Do you think I enjoy being sad? No. Who does?

You trigger yourself to give yourself a reason to cut.