Really feel so damn depressed now..
'As the pain got more & more unbearable, self destruction becomes the answer.'
I'm so tired of friendship problems, I'm so tired of all the insulting, the jokes.
Is it really that fun to make fun of someone? Is it really amusing to laugh at someone's flaws? You tell others not to judge, but you yourself end up judging people? It doesn't make sense.
'YiJuin said all of 'em have enough of Cheryl alr.'
I'll kill myself. Soon. It'll be the time soon. There's nothing to live for. I'll finally be in peace. I'll finally not hear the insulting. I'll finally not see people laughing.
Then you guys will be 3 again. You guys will be happy again. There'll be no me pmsing. There'll be no me being annoying. There'll be no me whining. There'll be no me.
The thoughts of suicide actually comforts me. Really, I see no future. Won't you Lord just take me away already?
'YiJuin says Cheryl's lying, she don't even want to meet her de.'
Damn you.
Dont text me everyday asking me where am I anymore alr. I'm so sick & tired of this.
You, YiJuin, was the person I trusted the most, the person I loved the most. Guess I always love the wrong person most.
'She pms a lot.'
Why don't you try to be me? Try to put up with all the insulting & all. Why don't you try.
Kill yourself, no one cares.
Cut myself again. For the longest time, I did it again.. Cut my wrists. The red blood leaking down my writs. The verical lines. Oh damn.
When I daydream, I don't daydream of guys. I daydream of me dying. I'm sucha freak.
As you slowly drift from people, you'll come to realize how worthless you're.
Haven't talk to Shanya for idk, pretty long considering we used to text everyday.
Perhaps this is better. When the day comes, when I finally kill myself, she'd be less sad. She wouldn't care anyway.. She've so many people around her. I'm nothing.
I miss the past. When did I change? When did I start cutting? When?
Goodbye world
I'm sorry to anyone who cares. Nah, no damn one cares. (: so goodbye. One day, I'd do it. You'd find me dead soon enough. You'll all celebrate. You'll all smile. You'll all rejoice.