Why am I so scare to lose you?
Cause you remind me of him. You're just like him to me. If I ever lose you, I'd treat it as losing him three times. Yes, I lost him twice..
But why am I jealous why other girls talk to you? I shouldn't be. I shouldn't even care. But I feel jealous.. And I can't help that feeling.
But I can't fall for you, I can't. It'll be like torture all over again. Cause feelings? It brings hurt to people only.
'Cut babygirl, cut. Die die die my darling. No one will care. You'll be replaced. You're jealous? Serve you right. He'll never fall for you. Cause you're fat, worthless, ugly. Look at yourself in the mirror honey. Cut, it'll make you feel better. But it's just a short term solution. Die, and everything will be okay.'
That's what happened to me during Chinese class. Those fucking voices were singing to me, laughing at my pathetic-ness. I had to silence those voices. I ate 10 panadols. 10. Hope I'd die.
I had rashes and vomited. Well... :/ I didn't eat anything the whole day except for this small bun. My stomach feels so fucking uncomfortable.
You'd never understand this pain. Never
They say the blood of the lives of people who cut is only worth a single rose. Let's see okay? Someone shoot me and we'll watch the blood flow.
I'm the kind of girl who won't flinch when you point a gun on me. I'll ask you to shoot.