Used to be able to handle stress without having to use a blade
I cry so easily these days cause I haven't been cutting in like what, days? I was like super snappy and fucked up cause I totally couldn't take the stress without cutting.
Chinese teacher gave up on me. Cause I was too freaking stressed and fucked up that I started giving attitude. As usual.
Then after that, since I'm not meeting Trevor, I went to do it. Hurt myself again.
Really, no one should ever start cutting. Never. No matter what fucking reason. Look what it done to me.. I can't fucking handle even one week without it. I'll start crying for no reason, start pms-ing.
I'm gna start to do it again.. I never wna cry in class again.
People will start giving up on me
I hate it when I see someone I used to be so close to. We used to talk every fucking day, go out every week. But now I can't even look at you in your goddamn eyes.
I mean, seriously. I miss those people whom I lost. But it's sad, they don't even care.
You're never gna understand how I feel.
My cuts are getting deeper. The longer I stop, then start again, it become worse. I just made another scar.
My cuts takes really long to recover cause I only cut at one part of my body and it keep getting cut.
The A's still there. I can still faintly see it. You've to focus to see it.
A? It reminds me all the time of the time when I started cutting.
It slowly become worse and now I'm addicted. I can't help it. I wonder if there'll be a day where I cut so deep till I need to have stitches.
The unexpected always come true.