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And you pray everyday for the pain to go away but it never did ♥


Friday, May 11, 2012

Wayne only cares to apologise cause Daniella talked to him, he felt guilty. He wouldn't give a fuck normally.

'She thought you were different. She thought you're not like the rest of 'em. But in the end, you're just like 'em'

To be honest, I'm still sad over losing Wayne. I still don't get it. I don't. It wasn't just him who left me, 7 people. 7 people left me without looking back at all. They left me, & now insulting me? Daniella's right.

'Just hate her & mind your own lives'
I wish they would. Hahaha.

Was it fun? Watching me slowly fall apart. Watching me cry. Watching me breakdown?

Honestly, I don't understand why people can leave so easily? I mean, that person was someone who you knew so well. Someone you had so many memories with. How can you hate someone in just 1 sec, just listening to what someone said. How?

Even after all this, I haven't hate Junie, Yiling or any of 'em. To be honest. Sure, I'm happy without 'em. But still, I do think of 'em at times.

I don't know. Does popularity change people that much? Does beauty change people? I don't know alr.

I wish I can stop cutting. I wish I can just stop all this shit. I wish someone can just take all my penknifes away. I wish that person is you.

People who have no reasons to cut : happiest people in the world.

Do you guys honestly think I like cutting? Do you guys think I like the pain? No. I don't.

When I cut, I'm in control. Others can hurt me anytime, anywhere. But me? I can choose when to stop & start. The pain makes me feel alive. Yea, the cuts are ugly, but I can hide 'em. I don't know when I got addicted. Only Daniella understands. None of you do.

If cutting was so easy to quit, I'd stopped long time ago. Now? I'm practically destroying myself again. Just like last year. I'm like last year.

Everybody is waiting for you to breakdown. Everybody's watching to see the fallout

I really wonder, if I've that much flaws for everyone to insult. That much flaws for everyone to laugh at.

Now, whenever I walk, I can't help being cautious. Whenever I eat, I'm scared. Now? I can hardly eat a meal.

It's the boy you never told you 'i like you'~

Maybe, someday, I'll stop cutting. Maybe someday I'll really be happy. Maybe someday, you'll be mine.

They say they wouldn't leave
But they still did


Cheryl Baby'Piglet ♥

Don't underestimate the amount of pain someone must be in to drag a blade across their skin
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal
Love leaves a memory no one can steal

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The Past ♥

May 2012
June 2012
July 2012
August 2012
September 2012
October 2012
November 2012
December 2012
January 2013
February 2013
March 2013
April 2013
May 2013
June 2013
October 2013
November 2013