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And you pray everyday for the pain to go away but it never did ♥


Monday, May 7, 2012

The urge to cut. It's back. Fuck.

Wayne.
'Have you ever badmouth Junie?'
'No.'
'Have you ever backmouth me?'
'No.'
'Have you ever badmouth Wengkit?'
'No.'
I'm sorry. I'm just a backstabber. I understand. I'm sorry,

He's not texting me. I can't be happy now. I can't tell him. I can't talk to him.

Talking to him makes me happy. Talking to him just makes my day. But he's not here now. & the only thing I can do is cut....

My mind. 'Cut. Just cut. Everything will be okay after you cut.'

Just why the fuck am I so moody? Just tell me. It kills me. I don't understand why other people can be happy without cutting. I don't understand why people don't cut. I don't understand why is it me. I don't understand why everyone else is normal & not me. I don't understand why I'm a freak. I don't understand why everyone else is so skinny & beautiful while I'm so fucking fat & ugly here. I dont mother fucking understand.

I only want to be pretty. I only want to be normal. I only want to be happy. I only want to be skimny. I just wna be beautiful. Everyone else have something good. Everyone else has a talent. Me? I'm only good at crying & cutting. What else can I do?

Never good enough for anyone. Not even him. I tried. Well... I'm just that ugly & fat. Who can I blame?

They say they wouldn't leave
But they still did


Cheryl Baby'Piglet ♥

Don't underestimate the amount of pain someone must be in to drag a blade across their skin
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal
Love leaves a memory no one can steal

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The Past ♥

May 2012
June 2012
July 2012
August 2012
September 2012
October 2012
November 2012
December 2012
January 2013
February 2013
March 2013
April 2013
May 2013
June 2013
October 2013
November 2013