Really moody today.
Felt really worthless.
The moment when you found out you can no longer trust anyone.
'You're doing it on purpose.'
'Doing what?'
'Purposely making me feel worthless.'
You don't know how it feels, to feel like you're completely worthless. Like no one needs you. Like no one cares. You really don't.
Have you ever felt like no one needs you? No one cares? Even if you die. No one would care. I understand that.
I know pain, I understand it.
Andy, I dreamt of you today... I woke up, still with the images in my head. For the first time in many nights, I've no nightmares. I dreamt of you. I dreamt of us being together again.
It hurt so badly when I woke up. I could still feel your lips & tongue. I could still feel your hands. I could still hear your laughter. I could still see your smile.
That remind me of how much I actually miss you. How much I actually hid from the reality I'll never be over you.
I really really miss you.... You said, if we grow up, if we're meant to be, we'll be together? Idon'tknow, Andy... I'm so sorry I fell for someone else. I really am...
I hope you understand:)
