I done it again. Syed says I'm strong enough to overcome that addiction. But I'm not. Strong? I cry all the time.

Wengkit & Wayne called me slut today. Like seriously? I alr think I'm slutty. I'm alr scolding myself for it. Well. Thanks for reminding me of the flaws I'm so aware of. Thanks a lot k. Honestly. I hate myself. I hate the fact I'm slutty. I hate it. Can you guys just stop it? Just stop. Is it that fun? To call a girl slut. Really? It affects me more than you think it does. I feel like cutting myself again. Is it that fun? To torture someone that badly? I'm sorry: I didn't know it's that fun.

Yes. I'm ugly, fat. & now another to add on. Slutty. I shouldn't let this affect me. But I allowed it. I'm sorry. I'm not that strong. I've been strong for the longest time. I've laugh&smile. But this? Sorry. I'm done being strong.

Just tell me. You don't like me. Straight in my face. It's better than getting false hopes. Just crush my hopes. Once & for all. I'm tired. I can't try to get you anymore. I'm too tired. Everytime you smile, I fall harder. Stop. It hurts. Falling deeper yet knowing I've completely no chance.

I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough, good enough, smart enough, skinny enough. I'm sorry. I try so hard. But well, I'm sorry. I can never be good enough for you.