Currently on bus. There's no internet here. I'll just type down my blog post then post it later.
Going woodlands now. Long bus ride. Can think a lot.
I'll never play basketball in my life again. I'll not touch another basketball ever..
'She this kind of girl know how play meh?'
'Aiya. Teach la'
'Dw la'
Am I really that embarrassing? Yknow, I could a least score a few times. But nah, never gna touch another bball ever.
My eyes hurts. My lens are hurting me. Sometimes, I wonder if being blind is a good thing for me. Then maybe, I'd stop judging.
Have a little faith in me~
I'm tired. I wna sleep. But I can't. I'm afraid I'd get nightmares instead. I'm afraid I'd dream of you. Then when I wake up, I'd remember that dream & start crying.
Didn't brought penknife with me. I can't vent all this. I had a urge today after maths.
I can just fail maths & die. From A1 to F9 (Y) Awesomeshit. Embarrassed of myself. Why am I so useless?
You're a beautiful monster~
Went to tamps to watch Dark Shadows with Daniella, Shanya, Rachel, Trevor, Dingxiang, Athens & Man Chun.
Sat beside Dingxiang & Daniella. Woah. Both Ds. Dingxiang let me eat his popcorn. The show's nice.
After that, went to arcade & Rachel, Manchun&Athens left. The rest of us just hangout till like 6? Really fun.
'Yea what. He care bout her a lot de.'
Yes, I know. You don't have to say it repeatly into my ears. Idw to hear it okay? I'm fully aware of it. Plus, I'm not blind.
Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby~
Honestly dw to care bout Wayne or Wengkit anymore. I'm done. Fuckedup friendships. Honestly, wna leave, just leave. I can't read your minds. You guys are scary. You guys change your mind in a sec, change your face in a sec.
Cause baby, you're all that I want.
'He knows'
'I thought he knows very long time ago?'
'No... Was it that obvious?'
'Yes'
Must have looked like an idiot. I don't know what the fuck comes to me when I talk to you. I honestly don't know... I think I just smile like an idiot. I think I just blush like an idiot. Idon'tknow.
Tears, please go away. Don't fall. Not now. No... I hope woodlands sells penknife in like cheap prices. Please. Idw to deal with this moodiness.
What would you do if I told you I la la la la loved you? What would you do if I told you tonight?
I wonder how it's like to be so beautiful everyone's jealous. I wonder how it's like to be your girlfriend. I wonder how it's like to be happy.
I'm gna live my life~
'He likes her. It's obvious'
'i know...'
Walked away from that moment. Shall just pretend I didn't hear anything
'I bet you sit beside him.'
'Huh? No? Dingxiang(: He wouldnt wna sit beside me. LOL'
'Why?'
'Why would he wna sit beside me?'
'Cause it's you'
So what if it's me? So what?
The urge to cut has never been so strong.... Going crazy.. It's okay. Cut & everything will be okay. My days without cutting will never be more than 0.